THANK YOU.....

more than words....

more than appreciation....

more than friendship...

more than family.....

Coming to work became more than all of those....

With you there and the Argonauts on the side....

I can never thank you enough....

from the petty jokes, to the most reaffirming wisdom and to your personal insights....

I will never say goodbye....

But its just so sad to see one of the beautiful people both inside and out go....

Yet immeasurable as you have become....

Wishing for your growth more than everything else....

See you around dear Ryan....

through the rain

Now he's gone and all I can think of are the memories!


After all the rumblings of the waged war. You came to me and asked for help.
No questions asked. I was a friend first and foremost then became a lover and up till the very end stayed in love with you.


I came to the rescue- As you have planned and intended it to be.


You said "I will destroy myself to show the world the innocence I have".
I stopped you.
I concocted all possible evasion and schemes just to divert all your negativities
I even perilled myself to let you know I was there and never letting go.


You have already decided and said "People have been so cruel to you and the time has come for them to know the malign they set on you!"
I drenched myself in tears.
I begged for you to stop.
Alas! You were unstoppable!


Was that still a part of your plan?


I am a midnight owl. A social butterfly by heart. 
If a life's gonna be wasted in attempt. Why not celebrate it with a bang!
No use in stopping a flow if there's not even a leak right?
So we danced and drowned the night away. Hoping that it will change everything.


And it did! This time I am not sure if you have still planned it!


What was that all about? You let me hang on to nothingness and pure fallacy. Fantasy even. 
Yet I guess you're happy now. You made life easy for you and miserable for me.
This is temporary. As inundated with failure as I am. I can and I will make it through the rain.
I hope you find your match- karma comes around, goes around.


ciao!

Goodbye, England Rose!

Finally, closure! Sweet words for others wanting out of a relationship, but a worst nightmare for the devote and true.

Take me for an example, loving a person so deep and true (to think this is for the 2nd time around now) has not led me to awaken of the tryst I’ve deluded myself with. I guess mending a heart takes a lifetime or so but if that happens are you still whole coming out? Am just not sure if that only happens for a usual relationship, mine is unthinkable, straight-gay coordination, although a pretty sight for some, but never true and not that simple. So hurting deep inside.

But I guess all things come to a halt when all fails and all is said and done, sad huh? Probably will, some others are devastated apparently, that’s the truth! According to a friend; when you enter to into some venture that pertains heart, probably 98% of what exudes you tends to believe that a “forever” is annotated on that, question: do everything last? I mean all relationships that I’ve known on the sailboat am in, are all fling and flirtations, the caravan has it hi-hello-goodbye are in such craze right now, how can a person say an I-Love-You waking the next day the person gone? Well can’t really tell, maybe am saying the words coz I’ve never been to a relationship that involved a lusting acknowledgement.