through the rain

Now he's gone and all I can think of are the memories!


After all the rumblings of the waged war. You came to me and asked for help.
No questions asked. I was a friend first and foremost then became a lover and up till the very end stayed in love with you.


I came to the rescue- As you have planned and intended it to be.


You said "I will destroy myself to show the world the innocence I have".
I stopped you.
I concocted all possible evasion and schemes just to divert all your negativities
I even perilled myself to let you know I was there and never letting go.


You have already decided and said "People have been so cruel to you and the time has come for them to know the malign they set on you!"
I drenched myself in tears.
I begged for you to stop.
Alas! You were unstoppable!


Was that still a part of your plan?


I am a midnight owl. A social butterfly by heart. 
If a life's gonna be wasted in attempt. Why not celebrate it with a bang!
No use in stopping a flow if there's not even a leak right?
So we danced and drowned the night away. Hoping that it will change everything.


And it did! This time I am not sure if you have still planned it!


What was that all about? You let me hang on to nothingness and pure fallacy. Fantasy even. 
Yet I guess you're happy now. You made life easy for you and miserable for me.
This is temporary. As inundated with failure as I am. I can and I will make it through the rain.
I hope you find your match- karma comes around, goes around.


ciao!

black pearl

I am still fuckin' hurt, betrayed and fooled!

I was so willing to forget everything!

I mean every bit of falsehood!

To hell with negatives from friends

Be damned with family's advice

I wanted to start from scratch

New.

Just us.

Together.

Forever.

Hoax as you are.

I detest you

I abhorr the day I met you

I hate myself for letting you in my life

I thought you are the greatest gift Lord God above bestowed

My bad I fell for a bad seed, yet again!

a constant reminder of what I did all for LOVE

Broken.

Me, myself and I.

Perfidied.

Shirked.

How can you do this?

Is lying second-nature to you?

Are you happy now?

Have you even thought of me, of the people who cared for you, who took you in when you were out and gave everything?

I loved you

and I cared

took everything bad

and held on to your good

I gave you everything.

I did not expect anything in return.

I did not ask for any truth.

I did not require you to love me back.

I just did what I have to do in half of the commitment I promised