Gay Straight Men vs Straight Gay Men

During one of the marathons of Sex and the City with Carrie Bradshaw, I can’t stop thinking how is it possible? But I guess it is. Have we cropped already and they are in the midst of us? How is it possible?

Gay straight men. Defined as men that has an enhanced feminine side of personality, the sensibility of a woman in the mirage of a man, with the eloquence and grace of a femme in the muscles and physique of an Adonis while the other is a truly developed and a personality that has truly embraced the fuchsia and the velvet hues, how would I not know, am one of the legionary.

Now that’s been cleared up, it’s so hard to visualize how can it happen or better yet how can that develop? Not that it’s impossible as I have come to realize that in this day and age, everything is perfectly possible, from human cloning to advanced gadgetry, name it and you’ll have a patent on it already. Yep! All true, not just the usual crap. No need to dissect the straight gaymen, am a living example and a lot others I know. So let’s focus more on gay straight men, odd and peculiar in ways more than one, actually this is the first time that I have pondered on the thought not that it’s a in a million

With all Gucci, Balenciaga and Dior in front of us, flaunting the very fashion that every men should be wearing nowadays, locally thanks to Folded and Hung, Bench and Topman that introduced the runway mode of dressing. Is it Martha Stewart or Tyra Banks and Heidi Klum? But whatever the reasons are, it’s conglomerating like a pandemic. Are we evolving or simply devolving? But exponentially, come to think of it, hasn’t it been the mode of todays generation? Maybe it’s evolution or maybe just a trend. Personally I won’t shell on the trend, it goes in and out and in some other ways they fade but evolution on the other hand grows and simply stays, sometimes its for good that even attracts others as well.

I guess it is a choice, an option to make when things are already in front of us, when we figured who we really are. But with all the phase we’ve grown to, I can’t seem to fathom how in the world did that mesh up?

So tiring and confusing.

Who are you?

A question quite intriguing even to the most learnt man. You may never know a person unless he reveals who he really is. He can portray a different persona but acts differently in more ways than one. Yeah you may say a bipolar or even schizophrenia but whatever tag it is it would still be the assonant as the psychosis may be the same and dangerous in some peculiar ways. Could we take it against them? I mean if it would be absolution who are we calling straight or gay nowadays? According to the Bible, we are created equally in His image and likeness but just a thought, does He think the way we do now? I don’t think so! It would be so irreverent to get into a gaymans mind. Ha! Don’t even dare to scan my thoughts, lazar!

Who is straight and who is not. Who is gay and who is not. Damn if we all know what tag to use and what not to.

Ego / July 16, 2009

I so love BK’s song. In more ways than one, I can pretty much relate to it. Simple yet direct. Defiant yet true. Stylish yet knocks you off your feet.

I talk like this ’cause I can back it up
I walk like this ’cause I can back it up
I got every reason to feel like I’m that bitch

True, some might think it’s arrogance but simply it’s just confidence.   Some say that if you have it you got it but I dare to defy, given time? I don’t think so! You’ll learn the ways of the samurai. At first, hesitations and convictions will subdue and flare but give it 21 days tops. It will be instilled. Dare? Not all talent are purely bred, some yes with heritage and ancestry but some are taught and learnt. Gifts for some but labored by others. For me perseverance is the key. Whatever it is, you just got to work hard, I mean real hard, mind you inborn talents are hastened for a brilliance coz although you have it, you need to oil up your hinge and work that ass out. I for one can attest to that. Dancing is my life and my passion, not only it needs to be a daily routine, as your body adjusts to every movement that you make, to every muscle you crunch, every sway that you pleia and every bounce you do to the beat, you also need to try other genre aside from the one that you know, versatility also counts. Says who? moi, of course! I talk like this coz I can back it up!

Literally, not only ramp models and beauty queens can do this. In your simple kind of style, if you got it then bring it. I personally believe it’s not the dress, the fad or the design that will make up and constitute an ensemble. Not even designer labels and brands will make you pretty and channel an oozingly hot strut. It’s how you handle and rock the outfit. You could be stylish in a plain white shirt and faded jeans if you know how to accessorize and crown yourself with glory, quite the contrary if you don’t, you’ll end up trashy and gross even if you have Gucci shirt and Armani jeans. If you know what I mean. You can strut a dress made in Ilaya Divisoria and bejewel it with sparkles from 168 Mall, the hell I care, just rock it if you’re under the spotlight. Says who? It’s bad to stare; I walk like this ’cause I can back it up!

I got every reason to feel like I’m that bitch. Sure you can be with all the people around you, if you’ll ask me, am not here standing where am at, if am pleasing everybody else, you know you can’t! You do your own stuff, you do your thing and all else will follow. It may not be the norm or the preference but you followed your heart’s desire, that’s what matters most. It’s you being taken into pride. Who would you trust other than yourself, you know who you are, what you want and when you need it. Let’s face it the world will never be alive without the facade and all that but it will always boil down to what you think and feel. Things may get haywired and plans get screwed but at the end of the day, you’ll get to ask yourself the worth of it all. If it is, then why bother! Aside for the spontaneity of it, you also get to flame the phoenix in you.

Though the peak is the sweetest triumph of it all, it’s always the climb that you will savor and linger.