defying twitter urge.....

here is my 2-cents.....
9-20

2nd day for my Jacksonville- I remember when it was with my Diamond! Wagas ang HELP!

BINGE mode!

defying twitter urge.....

here is my 2-cents.....
9-19




I got played on my own game.


so utang na loob ko pa ang maging friend mo-


I already settled myself as a beer-friend.... thinking honesty would be our policy! You lied!


sana di na kita makita- I know di sadya ang omission of details but it should have been the case. Kasalanan ko din yata I did not ask.


pangalawang beses na kitang dinelete sa buhay ko- sana last na toh!


I am not okay! I want to ask questions but just can't!


BEER-friends!

my MUSE

I should be inspired right now but am not!
I should be thinking clearly but all my thoughts are rummaging in fact!
I should be able to incorporate all dire emotions but all I do is stare blankly on the white page in front of me!
I should feel the flow of creativity but no vivacious urge triggers my deepest essence.


WHY?


What is wrong? Is it me or not?
I am stuck!

my STARFISH

some says he's GAY
some said HE ISN'T


He said NO.


some said HE'S too YOUNG
some says AGE does not really MATTER


He said HE'S MATURE enough to handle himself well.


some argued HE'S too SKINNY
some said HE'S just LANKY and eventually grow out of it!


HE said with his TONED ABS and BICEPS who needs to buff.


some pointed HE'S SHORT
some says HIS height is just right about his age


HE said HIS COUNTENANCE plus WIT and CHARM takes it all in.


I say?


I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

ansakit

I feel the tremble from my feet up to my naple!
i feel cold on my palms!
I have to accept defeat even when I haven't geared my armor up!
I have to face the fact that not every goal is winning!
funny how things work!
funny how things end up!
it hurts to say goodbye, when you haven't said your hello's
it hurts to affirm that the only confirmation you got was a nod
I guess this is it!
I guess that is life!
at least now I know, that when I walk away- we're good friends as can be!
at least now its clear, that milestone in life- needs to be savored while it lasts!

i dunno

will I let myself be happy?
OPEN and HAPPY?


or it would be much better to be resctricted?
SET and RESTRICTED?


OPEN or FIXED?
HAPPY or SET?


I know in the end I will get truly hurt.
At the expense of being happy, is it okay to let go and be in the current situation?


is this gonna be an INEVITABLE HEARTBREAK?

through the rain

Now he's gone and all I can think of are the memories!


After all the rumblings of the waged war. You came to me and asked for help.
No questions asked. I was a friend first and foremost then became a lover and up till the very end stayed in love with you.


I came to the rescue- As you have planned and intended it to be.


You said "I will destroy myself to show the world the innocence I have".
I stopped you.
I concocted all possible evasion and schemes just to divert all your negativities
I even perilled myself to let you know I was there and never letting go.


You have already decided and said "People have been so cruel to you and the time has come for them to know the malign they set on you!"
I drenched myself in tears.
I begged for you to stop.
Alas! You were unstoppable!


Was that still a part of your plan?


I am a midnight owl. A social butterfly by heart. 
If a life's gonna be wasted in attempt. Why not celebrate it with a bang!
No use in stopping a flow if there's not even a leak right?
So we danced and drowned the night away. Hoping that it will change everything.


And it did! This time I am not sure if you have still planned it!


What was that all about? You let me hang on to nothingness and pure fallacy. Fantasy even. 
Yet I guess you're happy now. You made life easy for you and miserable for me.
This is temporary. As inundated with failure as I am. I can and I will make it through the rain.
I hope you find your match- karma comes around, goes around.


ciao!