Love Abundance

Polyamory (from Greek πολύ [poly, meaning many or several] and Latin amor [love]) is the practice, desire, or acceptance of having more than one intimate relationship at a time with the knowledge and consent of everyone involved.


MANY LOVE


Polygamy (from πολύς γάμος polys gamos, translated literally in Late Greek as "often married"[1]) is a heterosexual marriage which includes more than two partners


MANY SPOUSES

Now there's a difference but still I really can't fathom the idea because it will mask the identity of a swinger. Most friends I know do practice swinging and for me it ain't healthy, promiscous even. 


I find it weird, absurd and unconventional but times have grown into such a warp that all unimaginable things before are now a reality and existing side by side with us, humans.


Would you like to share what's yours? Relationship-wise I mean. Jealousy is not a human trait well developed to handle the joyrides of intimacy and affinity. Things, yes! Why not! You can even trade, sell and barter to your hearts content if you want. But we are talking about an individual or a set of individuals. Breathing and alive. That thinks and feels differently in very atypical possible ways. Erratic sometimes if I may add. Well that's how genuine we are and distinct. Confused much? Don't rub it in!


That's my 2-cents. You? What do you think?
Are you PRO or ANTI?

emo boy

With my last break-up, I got devastated-torned into pieces and crashed all through. Never thought I could still bounce up and put resilience back in me. I asked HIM real hard to give me the one that I love. HE did. But that's just it, HE gave me the physical entity but never the whole individual with heart and mind to think, love and feel. Little did I know, as I contemplated, it was my answered prayer. Granted by the Omnipotent.


Again I prayed hard, really hard, well let's say this time much harder than the last. This time, I entreat and adjure for HAPPINESS. That's all. May it be a new friend, empowered life, success with career, love of a kin or even just a simple gift. Doesn't really matter what it is. Just a lucid or even casual thing. Am up for grabs. Happiness. 


But as HE is so amazing and a truly wonderful loving GOD. I again asked for one and he gave me the ONE. I hope. Emo Boy. He made the sun shine again. Made me realize how it is to fall in love again and trust and hope and be simply happy. The thought of him clears my head and gives me life from within. Words may not vindicate and not be enough to utter how I feel right now. Happiness. I know it will end but that's the future's concern already and that's why we have a present to make all that progeny matter.


But wait there's more. Have I told you that I am in a POLYAMORY kind of relationship? 
I know! Smells trouble, right? Who cares! I don't.
I am not conventional and I have the alternative lifestyle to boot. So right now it's a win-win situation. Consent it stays the same. I hope. 


Uncertain, hmmm? Yes! It's inevitable. Everything else is temporary. Only HIM is enduring and permanent.

RESTRICTED

At what point do you consider RESTRICTED in a certain relationship?


Is it the point where you can't make your own decision already or at the point where you stop growing as an individual? Does a petty "where you at" or a simple "have you eaten" maybe a nudging "who are you with" can that be considered as restrictions? For me it ain't!


BUT WHY?


I am in a relationship right now. Confused and bugged. I don't want to make mistakes. Don't encourage me with "have room for errors". I have suffered enough for this relationship to work. I want to make things smooth and perfect. Trial and error method is not feasible this moment in time.


BUT HOW?


I want to scream and shout. Time and again that all my past relationship are a blunder and failures. I want to make this relationship work and grow and prosper yet right now I am not sure if my methods are correct and superb and will make a fine tune for this partnership to spoke off. Is there something that I need to know?


BUT WHAT?


I am no perfectionist but I am a certified obsessive-compulsive bitch. Sorry and please excuse my French, not a saint here. I want to lessen, minimize and even eradicate all loopholes. Safe-protect that's my word not baby-proof my relationship but I don't know how and where to start. I am helpless. I am in turmoil and I know its impossible. Still I can try right. No harm over it. Or I 
could die trying.


Is there a book or a self-help for PERFECTING a RELATIONSHIP?

karma

I am single. 

Hard, cold fact. I know it ain't easy nor that hard to contemplate. Enigma as others say but others get it as a repellent. Is there such a thing? Relationship-repellent? I am bugged, confused and mandated. Insects has pestecides but do humans have as well? Beats me!

Couples say you are a threat, other singles says it's a blessing but mean girls says karma with a capital K.

I guess who wouldn't.

Take the certain case of a couple, they are blessed, yes. But don't think they are stable, oh no, no, no. Don't dare say that. Stability on one's relationship is always temperamental, it has its up's and down's, tricks and lo's straight or gay alike. No such pretensions, either they are making it or breaking it. Sucks big time really but that's reality.

Blessing yes, you get to do stuff on your own, no hang-ups to falter to, no restrictions to think of, no headaches and heartaches to ponder of the things you want to do. In short, no repercussions to answer to. Damn right you are, single as it is! 

Happy.

Period.

Karma? This is what am pointing at. Do you believe what comes around goes around? Right now, I am yes. I have been that bitch you can think of, having two main course over dinner, neglecting every plea a partner requests for, criticizing every move your behalf makes, name it, been there done that. As far as I can tally, the last verbiage that I uttered to a dearest was “ You are such a tiring company to be with” which relatively happened on a dinner date, enjoying a sumptous and expensive meal in a 5-star hotel. Asshole right? Well that's me. Bitchier than ever. Meaner than the last and egotistical in nature in the least.

But am I getting my meds rights now?

Is it payback time? Has my time came to be judged upon? Maybe it has. Maybe it will. Or not even. I don't really know. Should I be ready for that? Or let things pass by as they would? Well, tricky as I am in a situation I am into, guess perhaps?

Damn these bad vibes are! 


Shoo! Shoo! Get the heck away from me. Don't want you near, don't want you never. As in ever.

Blistering bliss!!

Am I just confusing myself with the illusion of being happy? It has been years, and I have not fully recuperated of the feelings I’ve had before, am I obstructing myself to much? Weighing things, complicated as it is yet I really have to stand to a point. But which would compliment us better? We’ve stayed as friends as long as college days were frequent some say that elevation of such relationship into greater heights, some soar but at times flunks deeply underground.

Before I never believed that the heart and mind contradicted to the extent of losing your grip but lately, with the scenario I’ve been to? Really did make a snare on my knuckles. My psyche being the one who managed all the stirring emotions since the break-up, controlled all faulty actions and refurbished the necessary mending and moving on apprehended. In actuality is aching, why? One single reason, the heart that feels every beat and the one that surges all emotions is still very much entwined with the thought of the love that once was at full bloom.

Creepy huh, but for me although it was the biggest lie I’ve ever interluded with, it was also the happiest, most enticing memories I’ve had since time in memoriam. You know the feeling of being full, contented and just happy was there, as songs rhyme it, all you need is Love, duh! Illusions? Yeah it was but sure is one of the loveliest by far! Whew! Too much to handle for a crippled heart that has been too much of sadness the world can offer!

I want to scream but I just can’t! I am still in love but there are a lot of thoughts in swirl running thru different verses of what-will-happen and lots of if-only keeps on racing. What will I do, whom will I follow……aaaaaaarrrrhhhhgggg! If only there are simple ways of falling in love, but I guess they never come in full package, one way or the other has its surges, deviants that not anybody can ever reach through. Well some of us conforms, but does everybody?