i love you's

It came as a shock.
Jaw dropping, eyes circling and not-uttering-a-word shock!
I never thought it would come from him at all.
Came to thoughts already about the situation I harbored.
Complicated, vainglorious and vindictive!
Falling in love was never really an option this time. It was a decision.


I kept my thoughts and feelings to myself.
It wasn't being non-chalant nor not caring at all.
I was just being careful, for me, for him and for everybody involved.
This wasn't a part of my plan.
I am happy as I am. Alone in a sense but not lonely.
You will seldom see me cry.


Then came one night. On a dream. He came to view infront of me.
I woke up crying. Was it a signus? No idea! But for me it wasn't a good sign. That marks a phase.
The falling in love. Point of no return. The make or break.
I don't know what to do anymore. Half of me wants to stop and let all go and half screams it's your one shot to love so hang on tight. Enjoy the joyride.


Would it be all worth it?
Is this happiness genuine at all?
What would entail after all this?
Who, When, How, What if?


If I try to answer them all, knocking Einstein would be my next puzzle piece.
Funny how I got tangled in this mesh.
I only asked God for a LOVE worth dying for. And he did. Next time I will always remember to be careful in wishing, because I always get it.