Goodbye, England Rose!

Finally, closure! Sweet words for others wanting out of a relationship, but a worst nightmare for the devote and true.

Take me for an example, loving a person so deep and true (to think this is for the 2nd time around now) has not led me to awaken of the tryst I’ve deluded myself with. I guess mending a heart takes a lifetime or so but if that happens are you still whole coming out? Am just not sure if that only happens for a usual relationship, mine is unthinkable, straight-gay coordination, although a pretty sight for some, but never true and not that simple. So hurting deep inside.

But I guess all things come to a halt when all fails and all is said and done, sad huh? Probably will, some others are devastated apparently, that’s the truth! According to a friend; when you enter to into some venture that pertains heart, probably 98% of what exudes you tends to believe that a “forever” is annotated on that, question: do everything last? I mean all relationships that I’ve known on the sailboat am in, are all fling and flirtations, the caravan has it hi-hello-goodbye are in such craze right now, how can a person say an I-Love-You waking the next day the person gone? Well can’t really tell, maybe am saying the words coz I’ve never been to a relationship that involved a lusting acknowledgement.

anxious: falling-in-love

A lot of people is so gung-ho to fall in love. Especially my essences. My friends for one, cavils all frustrations they get from their adored one, two: my kindreds although happily enamored snivels all the circumventions they get.

a lot of WHY’s bedevils me?

But mostly unanswered, I mean, is learning from experience out-dated already? Maybe it’s with how things never happen the same way twice, point taken I know, but isn’t it absorbing the orb already so you won’t be in the same mesh?

Whew! Is it love they’re discerning or it’s just lechery? One way or the other, the boon is maybe that exquisite since they frolic to another relationship after ending the most recent proffer they have. I maybe judging from a one-sided view and please emend, thank you but that’s what’s cropping up nowadays, a friend once told me; it’s just picking up pieces where they left them. True I guess, for some but not germane for all, right?

The question is to wait or not to!

The twiddling one’s thumb is a risk, might end up searching for the barley that was purveyed to you on the first few yards of your junket. Sequel to that is inculpating yourself, denying yourself of the happiness and what not! Fact: not all dingus can be scored, human as we are, gets mercenary one way or the other. It’s inevitable. On my end? Probably I won’t look for it nevertheless I’m not gonna gape at and hunch out every Dick and Harry that I’ll meet, if you know what I mean.

I know its perilous but who am I to argue, maybe it’s faith but I prefer stubbornness. If pride is on your wits, na-ah, a big NO, NO! I know where my ovation lies and its still, I have no intentions of going overboard and besides, its not my call, I do believe that every human being is delicate, la-di-da and sui generis, especially the behavior as what GOD crafted them to be. You can only influence, dictate and boss around but the decision still lies with every individual as he thinks and feels deifferent from your point, I may have a different view from you right now as you peruse this aide-memoire, right? Case to case basis, for short!

We won’t be sobriqueted “individual” if we don’t have a certain bias over others, nailed?