ansakit

I feel the tremble from my feet up to my naple!
i feel cold on my palms!
I have to accept defeat even when I haven't geared my armor up!
I have to face the fact that not every goal is winning!
funny how things work!
funny how things end up!
it hurts to say goodbye, when you haven't said your hello's
it hurts to affirm that the only confirmation you got was a nod
I guess this is it!
I guess that is life!
at least now I know, that when I walk away- we're good friends as can be!
at least now its clear, that milestone in life- needs to be savored while it lasts!

i dunno

will I let myself be happy?
OPEN and HAPPY?


or it would be much better to be resctricted?
SET and RESTRICTED?


OPEN or FIXED?
HAPPY or SET?


I know in the end I will get truly hurt.
At the expense of being happy, is it okay to let go and be in the current situation?


is this gonna be an INEVITABLE HEARTBREAK?

through the rain

Now he's gone and all I can think of are the memories!


After all the rumblings of the waged war. You came to me and asked for help.
No questions asked. I was a friend first and foremost then became a lover and up till the very end stayed in love with you.


I came to the rescue- As you have planned and intended it to be.


You said "I will destroy myself to show the world the innocence I have".
I stopped you.
I concocted all possible evasion and schemes just to divert all your negativities
I even perilled myself to let you know I was there and never letting go.


You have already decided and said "People have been so cruel to you and the time has come for them to know the malign they set on you!"
I drenched myself in tears.
I begged for you to stop.
Alas! You were unstoppable!


Was that still a part of your plan?


I am a midnight owl. A social butterfly by heart. 
If a life's gonna be wasted in attempt. Why not celebrate it with a bang!
No use in stopping a flow if there's not even a leak right?
So we danced and drowned the night away. Hoping that it will change everything.


And it did! This time I am not sure if you have still planned it!


What was that all about? You let me hang on to nothingness and pure fallacy. Fantasy even. 
Yet I guess you're happy now. You made life easy for you and miserable for me.
This is temporary. As inundated with failure as I am. I can and I will make it through the rain.
I hope you find your match- karma comes around, goes around.


ciao!

Ganito kami sa Makati

"Ganito kami sa Makati!"


Makati has been known for that slogan, THANKS to Vice President-elect Jejomar Binay, who lived by the name itself and the markings and makings of a GOOD leader. He was one tough man to break, others just faltered under his feet and he reigned supremacy over other opponents that adversify him from his mayoral seat. 


Makati has been one of the prominent cities in the Metro. I salute how he handled issues here and there- which is normal! As you get to the top, it piles up and explodes but not Mayor Binay, I am all hail and heads-up to him once Makati and his name is in tandem.


Recently, a friend of mine had a business to transact and procure. Real estate of some sort, I did not get into horrid details as it really never is my forte but a juicy came to me elusively about a certain head of the department who is painstakingly asking for "lagay", "suhol", aka "bigay" or "padulas" just to get through with the proceedings. What in the world was that? Of all places? Makati? That I beg to differ and disagree with my friend- not Makati. As in! Not the city to envy. So my friend gave me the blueprint, the plan, the permits, the revisions plus a headache. 


Trauma- this is too much to handle for my brain. Beside the point here, why ruin a glorious name for a couple of bucks and a lifetime of name and status, protected and worked upon with? And not even by VP Binay himself but another individual who was supposed to fulfill his sworn duty.


This may be of a little voice trying to scream yet I will still try. I know it won't be much but I thought under the President Noynoy administration plus the guiding hands of Vice President Binay, how come this elaborate sabotage of the clean slate that this administration perforates is bit by bit becomes an illusion. A promise again? We've been there! Nothing new this time around? 


CORRUPTION
Are we seeing that again?


I know I am in no position to rebuttal or even claim, the establishment isn't mine in the first place but all I want is to rectify this anomalous incident. 


Heads of state be warned and be alarmed. Bees are swarming again.
We are not creating a stir. We are just stirring the coffee.

black pearl

I am still fuckin' hurt, betrayed and fooled!

I was so willing to forget everything!

I mean every bit of falsehood!

To hell with negatives from friends

Be damned with family's advice

I wanted to start from scratch

New.

Just us.

Together.

Forever.

Hoax as you are.

I detest you

I abhorr the day I met you

I hate myself for letting you in my life

I thought you are the greatest gift Lord God above bestowed

My bad I fell for a bad seed, yet again!

a constant reminder of what I did all for LOVE

Broken.

Me, myself and I.

Perfidied.

Shirked.

How can you do this?

Is lying second-nature to you?

Are you happy now?

Have you even thought of me, of the people who cared for you, who took you in when you were out and gave everything?

I loved you

and I cared

took everything bad

and held on to your good

I gave you everything.

I did not expect anything in return.

I did not ask for any truth.

I did not require you to love me back.

I just did what I have to do in half of the commitment I promised

SUPPORT THE FREEDOM TO LOVE: 18 JUNE 2011

We have the right and the freedom,

we are not different just diverse of how you think and do.

It does not happen overnight. Make a statement.

Singapore already asked for support.

Hopefully Philippines will follow through.

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STATUSes

chat.shoot the breeze
relationship.Mr. Perfect!
busy.Busy
friends.leisure & nightlife
date.Sex and more
away.not at PC
nothing.surprise me
sex.now or later
invisible.when online

STATUSes

Most of the times these are the ones that you usually see in PlanetRomeo or Downelink or Manjam. Odd how diverse they became and how they puckered from the usual cliché-Married/Single status we have before. We may have educed, yes, but up to what extent? We are supposed to be gearing forward, we have reached and transitioned to the 21st century with ease and snap but still the diversity and complexity is somewhat not genuine and specific .

Personally, I don't have qualms over such but if you declare otherwise, that should be what it should be. Not the other way around. I know some. I know some....one. Confused much with this gender-biased toxicity? Dig in.

Chat. So you're here for a tete-a-tete? Nothing to do in a days time? Yeah it figures for bum and lazybones. Get a life! We have 24hrs in a day, mine is so limited I want it to be friggin' 36.

Relationship. This I belong. I know for a fact that I am a cougar hunting for prey, I am a hopeless romantic for chrissakes! I want my happily-ever-after, blame Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty and Snow White, they disseminated the flyers! I know right?

Busy. As the status insists.

Friends. Fucking friends? This I got to agree. Well, everything needs to start from scratch right? You meet and greet, decides to go out sometime, then party all night and if you hit the spot, end up in bed otherwise but if not stays platonic and gets to be the bff- as in forever, convenient for some but others dwell on the what-if's and the maybe's, hey, everybody is entitled to dream right?. That's a long time procedure getting laid but it works for others that are shy type and pedantic, not me!

Date. Here you get to relish both the company, dinner and the boy itself, what else. Romanticism I guess. The gallantry and the aristocracy all rolled into one. This is for the prim and the proper. The Alta sociedad as they say. And as all night would end- in bed getting a head or alone jacking off remembering how sumptuous your date was. What? No release? You'll keep it in? Oh come on!

Away. Obviously.

Nothing. This I find it odd. But I guess this is to avoid complacency and being spontaneous. Adventurous I may add- BDSM, bareback, piss, spanking, orgies or sex in the air. Urgh! Don't get me wrong, I'll stick with briefs and boxers as fetish. Thanks but no thanks.

Sex. Do we need to linger and state the obvious? Top or Bottom. Anal or Oral. You decide.

Invisible. Aaaah. This applies to discreet, in demand and wanted profiles. Too sexy, too gorgeous, too big of a tool and everything TOO MUCH it can't be contained. Hahaha.